Date : Thursday, August 30, 2007

Thursday, August 30, 2007 rainy / cloudy
Emotions: Blue

I thought I am strong,

I thought I can withstand the weakness and the feelings in me.

I thought I have already supressed all my sadness, lonliness, weakness deep down my heart but why till now the envious of my heart is still pouring out. Isnt me getting through it, isnt me supposed to supressed it down. WHY? What does that mean? Is this a kind of jealous or envy?

Maybe this is just a little words to deceive myself of not caring or worrying on this matter but deep down in my heart, I care. I wanna be like normal families where I can go outings, movies, dinners or maybe just sit around in the living room doing some chatting and watching television. I don't wish much but just a little tiny weeny wish from deep down my heart, hoping to have a normal family life.

当亲情和金钱并成一条线时，你会选择哪一个呢。

你会选择用金钱出卖亲情吗？

还是死都会捍卫你的亲情。

如果是我的话，我会选择捍卫亲情。

要是有一天死神降临在我面前，我希望他能给我一天的时间过个真正的家庭日在带我离开。

这就是我的要求，如果不是的话就让吃给完整的家庭晚餐吧。

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Date : Wednesday, August 29, 2007

You lied! You lied! You lied!
You told me that you will gives me all happiness in the world,
no matter what you will definately search all happiness for me
but until now I realise that my happiness is standing on someone's sorrows
and nevertheless I never feels happy anymore.

Happiness you gave me has already turn into sorrows
which now my tears has flood all happiness.


You said that you will be here for me whenever I need you
but now I need you, you were not here.
My happiness is being taken away by you, you lied!

我的快乐是建在别人的痛苦上!

自己的痛苦, 只能默默的吞进肚子里。

你说你会给我全世界的快乐，可是在我发现时，我的快乐一被自己的眼泪淹没了。

从此以后，我也在人群里找不到你的踪影。

你这骗子，偷了我的心和快乐。

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Date : Thursday, August 23, 2007

Date : Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Woah!!!! Back to my blog again and this time I have change a new layout for my blog. Finally got the time to update the blog, it was quite a busy time for me not work obviously but busy with my site and some of my fanfic stuffs hehehehehehehe. So I have finally have time to update.

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Tuesday, August 21, 2007

I will just start from yesterday since today is the first time I update my blog so just gonna start from yesterday and erm yesterday was fun although is kind of tired after a half day of sending stock than when I am back to the office is like omg my limbs are not mine anymore, is so tired but during the night when party world with two of my buddies in the office for our k session plus photo session and ms lim qiaohui is still as hyper in taking photos as ever cause she is the first person to remind us in the camera thing hahahahahaha than she was saying omg! my hair is so ugly but still continue to take picture hahahahaha lols. she is a cute girl and another fun girl was hoho josephine, we were like taking turns in taking photos and her favourite song is xing fu de ju li by liu geng hong ... she was always saying the mtv was so so so sweet.. heheheheh anyway i am really to have them in my life.. heehee =)

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Date : Sunday, August 12, 2007

wheeeeee! is been a long time since i wrote my blog, i have been a sotong since i got this blog and always forgetting about to update it but as and when i remember it; i will be here to update my feelings. This blog is just like a toilet bowl to me, allowing me to pour my sorrows, happiness and whatever feelings into it. All these days, it was a heaven to me although on one of the days there is a small like fire breakout in my office area and is so happening on that day. =) Alright this will be a short updates on my feeling on the pass few days but for today I as usual free at home watching vcds 'On the beat' acted by Ron, Sammul and Joey Yung; it's a funny show. hahahahaha! later in the night gonna watch MAN U's first match ohhhh yeah! finally can see their match liao, waitin for damn so long heeeeee. YEAPPIE~ my Ronaldo! I can see him finally liao. YEAH!

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Date : Monday, August 06, 2007

OMG! I am getting old, I keep forgetting about this blog allowing it to rot but at least today I remember this blog as I feeling tight super tight.

I am just a normal girl, a girl that you can simply find on the streets but why chose me to take up such a big thing and you know that thing is too heavy for me, just like why does people love stressing. Isn't I just told you that she out and will call you back asap but why isnt you listening, instead of repeating words and keep on stressing a girl that know nuts about your case *cries*

Can anyone tell me why is this world so stressing? I am already enough vexed of work and now he the one that understand me the most, is not stressing me like nobody business. Oh My Goodness! Can this world just give me a break? I just need a short break to rest my mind, not to think of anything about work, relationship or anything. I just hope that somehow in this world will someone understand me or just help me take off this heavy, bulky hat off my head. It's dropping me DEAD.

我好想撞墙喔! 救救我吧。有哪个好心人来帮我把着重担扛走。

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