Bitter-Sweet Life

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LITTLE ANTHIEL!

yesterday it was anthiel, my little niece 3rd birthday
and i am supposed to update this entry yesterday when i reach home.
i am just lazy to switch on my computer after changing my clothes for
my bed hahaha! after work yesterday, went to ps with qh to build a bear
for anthiel's bdae present as i don't know what to buy for her as a gift so
i just build a cute little bear for her. hee =) we chose the a white with pink heart
bear over at the choosing area than went over to stuff it with white cotton and
we both did a heart ceremony for the bear with wishes. later qh gave the bear a
bathing and brushing session than we chose a white blouse and pink skirt but it
looks like a pants too with the bear tail stucking out. wahahahaha! so cute!
after everything is done, we register the bear into the build-a-bear system
and there is came the birth certificate of the bear. hahaha! to our admist,
we found out that the bear have micro chip in their body so if they are lost
it could be found but if there is someone willing to return to the build-a-bear
than it could be return to us. Oh! There is also operation for the bear if it is return
to the build-a-bear so they could check out who is the owner of the bear and sent it
back to the owner. It's cool right! hehe! =)

morning and afternoon were like busy, busy, busy
we have tons of unfinished work and our tables are too small for us to do multi tasking
hoping for a new bigger table for us as you know the area sharing between four admin
girls are really squeezy, we bearly have space to move around even if we can we will
definately knock down something. the most angry thing was the complain and refund letter
from the clients was oveflowing, i don't even remember i prepared how many personal
files for the clients and even for qh, things that are not done by her have to be completed
by her. like they lost the transaction slip for the customer change of card issue and also of cos
we need the slip for book keeping for other reference purpose and qh got to call on behalf of
them to deal with the matter, if the matter was us that brings it up i think we will get screw
up badly. it was a bad day for all of us here yesterday, the director was vexed with some
irritating person from the company last time and came with many cases from mom or cpf
so she was vexed till she talks to my dad and her emotional strikes him, since that he have no
appetite in the food he ask us to prepare, therefore we got to finish the food. =(
life are so unpredictable, one minute you can be very happy but the other minute you can be
sad. just like cyn she is somehow or rather quite sway this few day where she was always the
one that got scolded by the irrtating director and of cos sometimes her lil boss who really
dotes on her much but now don't know what happen the matter change. hais!

unpredicatable life of humans

logging off xiaoqi unpredictable life makes her headache

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Finally! after 3D2N of Genting trip,

I am back from malaysia to singapore.

Few days holiday at genting was fun,boring,exciting.

1st day there was normal,

when for food when we reach genting while waiting for the room.

poor joie have not even play and she was down with fever

probably was the weather or maybe was down to dengue cause

her fever was up to 39.6 during the trip. thank god she still can

play abit of rides before returning to singapore and both me and sister

bought anthiel out for a few rides during the lunch, she is so happy playing

though she know she will be here for only one day and will be back to singapore.

can see she really enjoyed the trip with the rides and all.

during the night, tried entering into the casino once but failed, hais

maybe it could be my look with hair up looks more childish so i was check

by the police than no choice i got to go shopping with sis mag around the shopping mall.

later late in the night, i tried again and haha! this time i got to get in and try the thing inside

the casino. but just don't like the feeling of a casino, is so misty with smoke. argh! =(

next day,

bought little joseph to the outdoor themepark for him to experience.

he is still a little scare of the rides and all but later he just warm up and enjoy.

especially when he saw the monorail, he was just so fasinated and said "so funny" and he laugh.

hais! later he was scare by the clown around the themepark that came so near to him until he

cried for a while and later his smile was back and start dismantle his balloon. hahaha!

he is so cute! Got to play one rides for that trip due to not enough time, played the cyclone and it was really exciting lor. i love it! and i wanna play the flying coaster but not enough time. hais!

last day, i went alone for shopping after breakfast when all the adults went into the casino and i went shopping alone to the arcades and bought some gifts back to singapore.

found the place above the arcade which says kbox, i was so curious with anything got to do with

karaoke that i when up and take a look out and it was k! went to sing for around five songs and

it only cause me RM$10 ONLY! you see how cheap it is! hahaha!

later in the afternoon, took the bus ride back to singapore. I was totally in a coma from the

moment i was on my seat, the sleep continues until i reach the toliet break and dinner. wahaha!

only food and toilet can wake me up =) hee!

photos update next entry! =P

xiaoqi absence make love grow fonder

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Finally done my assignment for conflict management, its is a hard one.
I dislike writing about myself especially in conflicts as I forgets quite fast so
normally I don't remember it in details but fortunately I managed to write down
most of the things that happened in my the conflicts I got into so finally completed it.=)
and has sent it to my lecturer yesterday night at 11pm!

enjoying week for us girls in the office,
the monster director was not here for around 3 days so it was a enjoyment to us
but tomorrow the monster will be back in office and I am on leave to genting. YEAH!
hais! but poor fellow colleagues got to suffer under the monster's hands (heyhey! i am not being sarcastic okays!)
don't worry girls, I will buy alots of food and gifts back for you all okays. Need a enjoyment to
relax my heart after a torturing assignment, every assignment looks torturing to me. =P

Yesterday,
qh and me went over to the jalan bahagia to get the t-shirt embroid and
the aunty gave us each a small pillow for us to lie on in the office. life in office yesterday we alrights and great, we enjoy the day but was quite sad when I heard from qh that J shouted
at her early in the morning lor. so irritating and how selfish can a person be, she only brought hers and C water bottle up and left the rest bottle below lor. We always one or two person bring seven person water bottle up to refill and she just brought hers and C up, wth!
hais! though I study counselling but I still don't really know the nature of human but now STOP,
stop thinking until tonight lesson. hahahaha!

looking forward to genting trip tomorrow missing him

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D . I . S . C

Psychometric test done up during lesson on monday and analyst it during yesterday lesson.
My three graph were somehow in odd shape, just don't know how explain.
The first graph and third one were almost alike but the second one turn out to be a bit mutated. haha! I told hannah I have a disorder in my second character,
than after that I than knew just look at the last one will do.
OMG! It make me worries for like few minutes before I knew the truth and the results were that I am a ADVISOR, someone who is merciful.

Reference with the DISC chart thing,
I am the one who is with high I which mean I have to come down more from unrealistic and face the reality more. Mr Fong say people with high I are always playing,
in their own disneyland and also laughing non-stop like a clown.
wahaha! It's true, I accept the fact that I am a person with high I cause I can't be quiet for one minute or else I will die. =P
So I also found out that people with high D dislikes high I cause we always gives them headache and a best friend of a high I is the one with high S, it is siti! hehe! lols!
though I really don't know what's personality will be qh but I think maybe someone with high I and high S, I don't really know until she did the test. I don't wish her to be a high C cause I don't want one day I will dig a hole for her to jump into it and I will be jumping, laughing outside hahaha! lols! =P Overall lesson was great yesterday with laughter and role play, I would actually like to go have coffee with the lecturer and some one the senior from intake 5 but I can't. hais! need to go home and deal with the assignment and I didn't, was knock off immediately I reach home yesterday so I go to deal with it tonight and final night.

Heard his (RXN)'s voice yesterday when andrew's mobile rang, his voice were so loud until I can hear from behind. hearing from andrew he did something unintentionally bad that is, he co-broke a rental with others and not with the HSR person when he suppose to lar. So the guy actually went down yesterday wanted to fight with him lor. haha! He was so headache yesterday until he got to talk to andrew. hee! =) so cute~ haha! I somehow analyst his personality with the DISC's model, he also have the same kind of personality with me and are both in between of I and S. hahah! =)

sweetest night looking forward to genting on fri morning

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ACCOUNTS IS .....

BORING!

STAGNANT!

UN-EXCITABLE!

SO RULING!

seriously, I am not a account student. I can't stand account though it have nothing to do with mathematics but I just can't stand the RULES of a account. They have so many plenty of rules in it and we got to follow each and everyone of it, without asking a question. So I could only say that accounts is not for me, I still love my psychology much as in I can ask as many question I like and is not that RULING and BORING. Accounts is strictly complicating! Finally, finish the business accounting module within 8 hours from morning 9 to evening 5plus, and I won't have to touch anything that got to do with account excluded the times at work. Beginning my life with some accounts now. =(

EXCITABLE SATURDAY!

Dinner on saturday were quite exciting and not that looking forward to it after I reach the place and realised is only me, qh and ricia sitting with all the guys. omg! HE! even sat at a direction that I can't escape from his eyes, the butterflies that was inside my stomach was banging and knocking onto the walls of my stomach making me feel so uneasy. Why wouldn't he sit at any direction that I couldn't see him? argh! But really absence makes heart grows fonder, haha! have a few scene of smiles and laughter just with him, feeling some sweetness in my heart for that night though I was repeatedly complaining I am tired, wanna sleep and don't feel like driving. Another thing that makes me feel great and excited was my niece, she is so cute running around screaming playing. whatever a kid could do, you can find in her.

qiaohui with little anthiel

xiaoqi with little anthiel

Is this sweetie pie cute?

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ENJOY!

I am enjoying the relax days without e monster in the office,
but she will ~~return~~ on saturday. =( Be in the office for like half a day
than later on monday or tuesday she will be down to kl soon. wahahaha!

My subconscious of disliking her is bringing it into my conscious mind.
Why Sigmund Freud grandpapa want to create this conscious thing, hais!
I don't want to remind things in my unconscious but this stupid brain always like
to rebuke my words, humpf!

SATURDAY!
Will be going to lim qh's house finally after turning her away for several times
saying I am shy but no one believe me. omg! I am really shy okays, don't dare to go
to friends house so awkward lor. =P Looking forward to the night dinner at Padang
for the thank you dinner from my dad to all brothers, sisters and the coordinator.

Assignment and School Torture Again!
... ... ... ... ...

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Question: Will Homosapiens change after time of living in this world?
Answer: Perhaps

Hmm, this question was the one I was asking myself after meeting up with my dad on sat. somehow or rather he have change in a dad that I no longer sees last time, a dad with big egos! No matter what we says last time, he will think we are wrong and he is right so this why is actually conditioned a character of not asking in my life. I am someone who don't ask much even if I know I am right and I want to know the reason. =) but anyway he really change lots maybe he's turning old. Do you guys know my dad is someone who don't like to buy bunglow or terrace, he think is something risky and a waste of money out there but on sat my brother-in-law spoke to him on the various housing price (as long as you know I have no interest in that so I am just sitting down there playing with my mother's 'fengshui' plant) and after discussing with him, we thought he will object or reject the ideas but in the end he just say "why not we see again in the last quarter?" haha! we were so stunned with his reaction, he did not reject but maybe buying it. ;) Do you think homosapiens really change after their are old? My answer was perhaps, I don't know the real one.

Question: Studying and Working, choose one.
Answer: Perhaps, both are better.

Just finish a week of lesson last week in school from tuesday to thursday than to sunday which is a 9hours of lesson with mathematics. omg! one of the lesson that I don't like since I in secondary school, its a killer subject to me. But fortunately the business mathematics I took yesterday was great, at least I know what am I learning from the lecturer and it sparks my interest in maths yesterday. During the lesson yesterday, the counselling students was laughing non-stop right behind as the lecturer speaks and the way she speaks is really funny. I think she use quite alot of strength when she speaks. haha! opps! sorry! (slaps mouth)

After the killer week of torturing study, I fall dead immediately when I reach home with the painful magraine hitting my head and some dizzy spells from my eyes. Pop one tablet of panadol after changing off my jeans and shirt, I jump onto my bed getting into my dreamland till 9pm at night than later after dinner at around 11 plus pm, I too jump onto my bed continuing my sleep again till this morning. hahaha! I am really tired!

xiaoqi energetic looking forward to saturday night dinner. geez

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FINALLY! Watch Sex and the City yesterday at lido. It was a hilarious,obsence show and its a M18, i think somehow it should be M18 n R21 haha! most of the scene so omg obsence. This is mostly a show which I think mostly only girls will see, it's talking about friendship, married, relationship and sex life too. during the movie, cynthia message us and hope we could be like the four main characters that was in sex and the city, they were super close somehow nothing can break the friendship even guys aren't allow to break and I think if we work hard to manage this friendship, we can maintain it like what they are doing. at the age of 30plus 40 when we are married with kids, we still can come out for coffee session, shopping, gossiping session and I have confident in our friendship.

Just wanna tells cyn,qh and liza thanks for being there for me whenever I needed support, encourage and though sometimes I might vent my fustration and anger on you guys but still your tolerance towards me is high especially qh my laopo and of course I won't forget josephine another bestie laopo. Thanks so much for everything! Our friendship will last till we become old granny.

第一次见面看你不太顺眼

谁知道后来关系那么密切

我们一个像夏天一个像秋天

却总能把冬天变成了春天

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪

我背你逃出一次梦的断裂

遇见一个人然后生命全改变

原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你我不会相信

朋友比情人还死心塌地

就算我忙恋爱

把你冷冻结冰

你也不会恨我

只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定

朋友比情人更懂得倾听

我的弦外之音

我的有口无心

我离不开Darling更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西

才常泼我冷水怕我忘形

你知道我所有丢脸的事情

却为我的美好形象保密

xiaoqi loves dabao, erbaobebe, xiaobao & nana

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爱上爱的味道
张韶涵
梦里花

送你甜蜜的微笑加一个问号
看你能不能解开恋爱的暗号
分你一半巧克力口感刚刚好
像我们现在暧昧
没道理抗拒到
每分每秒
有你就快乐
一口一口
要把爱吃掉

爱上爱的味道
让我脸红心跳
只有你才知道
爱情美丽符号
爱上爱的味道
感觉慢慢发酵
蔓延天涯海角
一定和你遇到

heart thumping xiaoqi - absence makes heart grow fonders

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FUNNY
HILAROUS
LAUGH TILL YOU DROP
INTERESTING

the above 4 are what i rate my first lesson yesterday, the lecturer was really a entertainer and a comedy. he was consultant psychologist, the one that i long to be since sometimes ago and hearing from him that only at the age of 40 than you can become a full-fledged psychologist and he is 45 this year. OMG! that means i need to be at the age of 40 in another 19years than i can accomplished and fufill to be a psychologist. Indeed lesson yesterday was interesting, first lesson of the module he made it very interesting for us to learn, even taught us something simple rather than memorising the theory of psychology. i think he did combine all (not sure) facts into 4 letters
that is F.A.S.T, define as Feel, Act, See, Think and he also wrote a book called the Facts of Life but for the defination i have already forgot some of it, will update it when i return home to read my blog. =)

during the lesson yesterday, i sms qh! she was troubled hmm not really troubled too but just being 'harass' mentally by somethings in the office and was pull out to ps though she don't feel like going, being nag by someone that though is not her fault. hearing her voice on the line during my break, she look perhaps somehow of sad, down so i talk to her for a few minutes to hear her complain. (girl don't sad okays! they nag at you only but xiaoqi will not nag at you and be there as a listening ears for you to hear your complain.) few minutes after hearing complains of qh, i got to put down the phone because my lecturer is walking over and he standing in front of me eating the berry sweet on the table than ask what have i learn so i told him the truth that i ... i ... learn the difference between a victim and a victor. Victim is someone without a identity beneath and keep on nag,nag,nag and nag tills the cow came home but a victor is different, they have a choice to everything. so i told him i was once a victim but now i dont want to nag and nag non-stop to be come someone with no identity, therefore now i want to learn to be a victor of choice. hee! =)

xiaoqi learning to be a victor forgetting about the victim with no identity

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肚子痛痛，肚子痛痛
痛死了！

Early morning stomachache, how do i know is actually my 姨妈 visit me.
how sway can i be? hoping for it to visit than she don't visit, when i don't want her to visit than visit. Aiyoh！姨妈, are you trying to kid with me?

Finally, after few days of rest and school starts once again with a new module CONFLICT MANAGEMENT! Is it going to teach me how to manage a conflict? so interested for tonight lesson at school but in another side worried for my foundational psychology results, don't know if i did it right mah. Hope I did write the right thing in for my short answer question.

Grrr! the pain is making me going insane!

dreamer xiaoqi is dreaming again

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this week,
a emotional week for me.
firstly was the coming of exams but
this could be a small matter and i successfully accomplished it
and the next thing was the most heart wrenching for me
that was the departure of my big uncle. my big uncle was someone
pretty close with me when i was a kid, his enormous care and concern for me
is more than a dad could give me whenever i feel lonely and he is always there
to bring me around with his lorry, sometimes with my cousin and also
before my aunty depart the world he too always bring us along with her, which
i felt the doteness from them and i respect them so much and love them so much too.

After five days of funeral,
today every single one of us exclude my sister as she just got married so
was unable to come. we send big uncle for the last journey to mandai crematorium,
looking his lifeless body my heart sunk down and tears. he is no longer that uncle that
cares for me bringing me out, talking possible sense to me, he is no longer there anymore,
god called him home to be with him relieving his stress and pain and allowing him
to reunion with my aunty. with that we also when over to mount vernon where
aunty was placed, bringing her ash in a urn over to mandai crematorium to be put together with
big uncle. Looking at the place they will placed in, i felt relieve as aunty and big uncle finally
get reunion together in the hands of God. So God i place my beloved big uncle and aunty onto
your loving hands.

Therefore lastly, I would like to dedicate this entry to my depart big uncle on 28 may 08
and my aunty who left us for God on 25 june 92.

给予我亲爱的大舅舅和大舅母，

谢谢你们每次给我的关心和爱护！
甚至 Mummy, Daddy 不在身边的时候，你们就好像是我爸爸妈妈一样的照顾我、
爱护我、给我无限的关心。真的很谢谢你们。
就在舅母离开的时候，虽然年纪小的我什么都不知道
可是我还是很想念想念你。现在大舅舅也离开的去陪伴你，
你不在寂寞了，你们就一起快乐的在神的身边生活。
我知道你们在神的身边，一定不会有事的。因为神会永远像爸爸一样的爱护、保护你们
就好像你们保护我一样。

至于婆婆，你们就放心我会好好的照顾她和其余的家人的
也会听大舅舅的话，好好念书成为一个对社会有贡献的人。

谢谢大舅舅，大舅母！
你们永远都会被记在我心里的最深处，你们安息吧。

顽皮任性野蛮，爱粘大舅母的 Ah Girl 留。

heart wrenching period of xiaoqi i love big uncle and aunty dearly

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