Thursday, August 30, 2007 rainy / cloudy
Emotions: Blue

I thought I am strong,

I thought I can withstand the weakness and the feelings in me.

I thought I have already supressed all my sadness, lonliness, weakness deep down my heart but why till now the envious of my heart is still pouring out. Isnt me getting through it, isnt me supposed to supressed it down. WHY? What does that mean? Is this a kind of jealous or envy?

Maybe this is just a little words to deceive myself of not caring or worrying on this matter but deep down in my heart, I care. I wanna be like normal families where I can go outings, movies, dinners or maybe just sit around in the living room doing some chatting and watching television. I don't wish much but just a little tiny weeny wish from deep down my heart, hoping to have a normal family life.

当亲情和金钱并成一条线时，你会选择哪一个呢。

你会选择用金钱出卖亲情吗？

还是死都会捍卫你的亲情。

如果是我的话，我会选择捍卫亲情。

要是有一天死神降临在我面前，我希望他能给我一天的时间过个真正的家庭日在带我离开。

这就是我的要求，如果不是的话就让吃给完整的家庭晚餐吧。

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