just finish with my history reading today afternoon on

darwinian and the mental testing.

their mental testing is really rubbish lor. they classifying intelligence

as inherited from parents, ancestors than those that have IQ below

normal will be classified under 'moron' and some are even brought

for sterilization. not only this, they even say that those whose IQ

are below average are not allow to get married or reproduce children

just to maintain the country intelligence level. what nonsense lor?

thankfully, i am born in this era and not that era or i think i will

be undergoing that if my IQ level was below average.

really feel so sad for the people living in the pass era, while reading the

textbook i was like mumbling to myself "rubbish", "nonsense" all kinds of words.

today,

i finally step out my first step of faith to took out my bible which i kept

in one corner of the cabinet and couldn't dare to take as i feels guilty

about the things i have done to HIM

but after talking to sharon suddenly i have the

urge to bring out the bible and the faith to flip it open

looking through the verses that He spoke to previously for encouragement,

comforting and healing.

i began sharing verses with sharon on msn and suddenly felt so charge up by

his words, i think soon i will step out faith moving back to him and

walking into his wide open arms that have been open up for me since i left.

Luke 9:23,24

Then He said to them all, "if anyone desires to come after Me,

i will take up a step of faith one day and carry my cross daily to

follow you down my route of journey call life.